When I was young, I grew up going to a Catholic church. I knew of God, but I never really new Him or Jesus. Church meant nothing to me. I soon went to thinking that there was no God at all. I was happy with this because I could do anything, and there was no reason to be "good." Nothing really mattered to me. I soon got into a deep depression with suicidal thoughts. At the age of 14, I started drinking, smoking cigarettes, and hanging out with the wrong crowd. Now these habits didn't get too bad, but without the Lord, they would have gotten worse. I stayed out past my curfew and lied to my parents a lot.
Soon I got into witchcraft. I studied this and "cast evil spirits out of my house." One day a friend of mine (who wasn't Christian) asked me to go to church with her and her father. I was drawn to that idea. So I went without having any reason why. It was the most terrifying and nerve-racking experience I've ever been in. But for some reason I wanted to go back. I even convinced my friend to attend the youth group with me. The second time we went to the youth group, the Pastor talked about youth conference for teenagers called Aquire the Fire. At this was Christian music and speakers. I didn't know why I wanted to go, but I went. I went without my friend who refused to go, and I went not knowing anyone. This was a very unusual thing for me to do. At the conference the host asked that anyone who wanted to ask Jesus into their lives come forward. I felt the Lord tugging at my heart even though I didn't know it at the time. So I went forward, and on my knees I surrendered my life and gave everything to Jesus. It was good that I had the chance to attend this because the day before I left I tried my first dose of drugs. But Jesus changed my life and my heart. I went home from the conference, and I hugged my sister and told her that I loved her. She asked what they did to me because I had never been this nice to her before. The moment I surrendered everything I felt a peace and security that I had never felt before. I had a new reason to live my life. I felt a new purpose for my life. I owe everything to Jesus. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me (Philippians 4:13).